"Just enjoy it" ...

I remember how some people made me feel growing up. The cool people, in the nice way. The people you looked up to. The ones who would play you music and it would feel so perfect there in their car with them smiling at you expectantly. It was so perfect that later, with my own copy of the music, on my own, I couldn't quite recreate the magic.

There's something wonderful about excitement, passion, someone smiling and saying "isn't this awesome?" One of my favorite things about those moment is that I just let them carry me. Like being carried downstream in a current, you just … stop trying to control it.

When I can actually get there, I love it. I think it's why charismatic leaders can command large groups. It's nice letting someone else drive for a bit. It's nice getting caught up in their vision. It's nice to not have to be in control of every little thing.

I've always wanted to let surprisebox do whatever it's going to do, but a while back I stepped even further back. I just let it be. I just tried to enjoy whatever would happen. It reminded me of driving with my brother who goes the speed limit. Waves of traffic on the highway go by him, lasting a few minutes at a time. It's a completely different experience. You see things from afar instead of as one of the waves.

Surprisebox keeps making me smile. The less I think about it the more it seems to mean to me. I'm finding the smallest things having the biggest meaning, things that even mentioning would steal some of the magic.

I'll just keep watching and smiling.

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People like to be lead, but they want the illusion of choice.