i have depression,
and i actually love a lot of it.
there are moods
i could not feel without this depression.
they are so complex and specific yet
so perfect like they were made
just for me to feel.
the amount of hopelessness is insane,
but the insight is also.
like if i could think of a more defining moment then one
when i am broken and helpless, i would be lying.
so, the depression is nice. sometimes
other times, it just kills the mood.
apart from that, there's moments where i want to feel
sad.
those moments tend to be very complex.
i wish i could tell you more, but i just dont even know myself.
and if i could tell you, i would.
i just consider typing [ESC] and ":q!"
but i needed this.
i needed two minutes to feel sad.
