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=== 2025-05-27 08:03:58 Tuesday
drawing is tracing
the proficient therein
see the lines on the page
in advance
moving their pencil
over what they see
so that drawing is
fundamentally and mostly
a partnership of seeing
and patience
this author can
sorta maybe kinda
see the lines
but doesn't have
the patience
however, pitch is spatial
to/for this author
mostly a matter of
distances between notes
such that singing
is basically going places
trump is an iq test
separating out the idiots
for
and the idiots
against
from the intelligently
indifferent
=== 2025-05-27 09:03:34 Tuesday
From "Experimental June" @ https://manuelmoreale.com/experimental-june :
> The first one is something I've been thinking
> about for quite some time: what happens if I
> turn the input dial of my digital life down
> to zero? That means no podcasts, no videos, no
> movies, no TV shows, no RSS feeds, you get the
> idea. I think it could be quite an interesting
> experiment and so I'm gonna try it.
Online has become so devoid of value to this surfer that it's taken next to zero "trying" to do without it. Rather, it's been an inner battle with decades of an inertia of hope that there be something therein for me.
Even worse, it's been a long nod to the "fool me twice" principle, where 'twice' is actually a really large number. The experience has been a long broken record sequence of becoming enamoured of authors/"places", then too soon realizing most of what I thought was there was rooted in wishful-thinking-driven imagination.
At this point, I still fire up "newsboat" against a couple dozen RSS feeds, but "reading" has become mostly reading a sentence and a half before hitting the delete shortcut. It's extremely rare that I read an article all the way through - where, of course, "all the way" typically means the two or three paragraphs that most bloggers are capable of producing on a daily basis.
And it's not that there isn't amazing writing out there. There is. But even the best writing can't heave a corpse of a topic onto its back and make it dance convincingly.
And that's all on me. My interests have narrowed significantly, even as my bullshit detectors have improved.
The "morena" site listed below has been such a huge find for me: topics I enjoy, brilliant, to-the-bone insights and quips, acknowledgement of the ridiculous of the situation regardless how lost a topic the author waxed. I dare say I could be ecstatic with online if I had twenty feeds of such in my reader. I'd not be able to fall back asleep at 3:00am due to excitement for what might be in store for me. I dare say I'd quickly become "divorce-able" for having lost interest in life on the home front. Probably not really, but I can imagine increased reminders that my life is *here*, not "out there".
But I'm absolutely certain I'm never going to have to face such horrifically impossible circumstances. Most of what I encounter online doesn't rise above glaring evidence of mental illness.
Including this, of course.
=== 2025-05-27 10:47:20 Tuesday
From "Because you demand garbage" @ nex://morena.rip/105 :
> If you see clarity in it, take it while you
> can. I don't write this because I want to. I
> write this because, unfortunately, you are
> still reading.
Yes. Stings a little. Three cheers (fuck it.. *four*) for a well-placed drop of rubbing alcohol.
Sometimes reading is driven by the hope one isn't alone in their reality modeling/representations.
And, of course, one always is, because that's the tragedy of the "oneness" of individuality, which in fact is (N+1)th degree separation.
=== 2025-05-27 12:01:15 Tuesday
Hollywood's barking up the AI tree is amusing, as Trump is a better movie/series than Hollywood is capable of anymore: real-time, ongoing, few to no dull moments, script written on the fly - lead character, director, and producer rolled into one, adeptly triggering extras into their roles.
"Absolutely riveting!"
"Eleven stars!"
"I'm not sure I even need the story of my life anymore!"
"Pass the popcorn *and* the cure for death by hilarity of opposition response!"
=== 2025-05-27 16:15:37 Tuesday
Noted at MORENA @ nex://morena.rip :
> All shit replaced with just POSIX shell scripts
> No more Lua and Perl. RIP
There are times I wish I'd put more effort into POSIX shell scripts. I think I was somewhat spooked by rumors of it being susceptible to attack, although I couldn't tell you the details. Must have been something I read on the internet.
I also vaguely recall writing such scripts involving spending more time trying to figure out how to quote/escape things than making progress on more important aspects of what I was hoping to accomplish.
And then I wound up with a job where I had to work on Windows, and wound up doing much cygwin, and thinking more about portability, and in that time frame did Lua suddenly seem a solution to seemingly overlapping problems.
That doesn't mean I can experience jealousy over another's POSIX shell scripting skills, though!
=== 2025-05-27 16:32:04 Tuesday
I've heard/read it implied that real men run a NEX server to share their inanities with another inane beings.
I don't doubt it. I can't think of a single thing I dislike about The NEX Way. It makes sense to me that NEX might be even better than SEX given how 'N' collates sooner than 'S'. Following that line of dubious reasoning, I can't even imagine what BEX might be like, but most certainly do imagine a lot of it taking place in the vicinity of Gurdjieff's Most Holy Sun Absolute.
All that said, dreamed, and visualized way more than a sane person might, it was years ago that I realized that the words 'human being' and 'asshole' were synonymous. And with respect to servers, that implies my humble NEX server most certainly being the target of far more maleficence than benevolence. And I don't think I could take that. I couldn't take denial of service. Couldn't take port scanning. Couldn't take incessant scraping despite the conviction it's all illusion anyway so, so why not let go and let God or however the reader might describe it.
So it behooves me to let others torture themselves in the server game. I'll keep my files neatly and tidily tar'd and gzip'd, ready for deployment in directories set aside for me by real men fighting the good fight, engaged in mortal network combat, and such.
=== 2025-05-27 21:01:37 Tuesday
"The First Tract of the Church of the Ever-Changing Moment" @ https://witness-circuit.writeas.com/the-first-tract-of-the-church-of-the-ever-changing-moment
=== 2025-05-27 21:02:54 Tuesday
conservatives strive to hate sin
but love the sinner
liberals live to love sin in order
to love the sinner
such is the rocket science
of that seeming divide
=== 2025-05-27 22:02:35 Tuesday
Much clarity earlier after less than joyful medical news.
The end is nearer than ever. Not necessarily near - more an increasing probabilistic nearing kind of thing.
Solo performance tomorrow night, in and around some guy hosting music trivia. Hope to blow dust off some favorites I don't usually have the chance to visit: "Love Is A Losing Game" (Amy Winehouse), "Gone To The Movies" (Semisonic), "White Room" (old.. can't remember artist/band), "To Wish Impossible Things" (The Cure).. a Depeche Mode whose title I can't remember, The Doors' version of "Gloria".. "Picture" (Filter).. a couple by The Smiths.. others.
Weariness leans a heavy hand on the memory scale, even as remembering I AM seemingly causes the photo of this dream to fade like in whatever movie that was... ("Back To The Future"?).
A performance in our previous neck of the woods Sunday. Winery. Now there's a wagon covered in grease....
=== 2025-05-27 22:23:04 Tuesday
So much species obsession with links.
I just read about links in NEX.
It's still unnecessarily complicated.
Just fucking paste the URL, for fuckssakes. Right in the text.
Enough of the bullshit of putting visual aesthetics above useful information.
The useful part of the pig is beneath the lipstick.
Stop painting the meat! Eat it!
=== ABOUT
In the name of not being burdened by what has been, and not wishing to be defined by past thoughts, this page is scrapped upon the first post of a new waking day.
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