Here is the story of how Medics have given me the diagnosis of Schizophrenia Paranoid.
Many years ago, I was hospitalized, against my will, into a Mental Health Hospital (big letters because those Medics don't stand to descend to the human level). It was, and still is, all a very very very unfair event.
Then, in the Hospital, they couldn't fit me into a category, so I defaulted to their ELSE clause. Which is being diagnosed with Schizophrenia. And yes, when I went to the Psychiatric Hospital, a person not fitting into a mental health patient profile doesn't mean this person is free of a mental disease, it means it has Schizophrenia. So, in their profession, these Portuguese Medics actually believe that each person is a mental patient waiting to be discovered.
So there is that.
Time after time, after my first hospitalization, Portuguese Mental Health Nurses set me up in and lies and deception and traps for they to re-hospitalize me when they want it to. Either is because of something innocent that I say, other time was because I was not (!) having a visual hallucination (and they said to me that I was), I believe that they had lied with stating that I have mistreated some of their staff, etc.. All the hospitalizations was made by them using brute force on me, or with me consenting to take a pill that made me crazy and forgetful and unconscious (I have seen other people in that state afterwards).
This time, during this week, I have called the removal of a person's right to self-determination, written in the Portuguese Mental Health Law, as a Nazi Law. Which is more true than more false. Let's see how this unfolds, although they seem to be weaving yet another trap now.
During each hospitalization, nurses have scissored my shoes in front of me, made me unconsciously write something (which until today I don't know what it was) on paper using my name (but you can see it is not my handwriting), taking showers that had vapours that made me pass out, put me in a room without flowing air that made me pass out by the lack of air, spending days without seeing Sunlight... All of these while putting the blame of this things on me. Mental Health Nurses expect patients to get out of the Hospital with mental traumas, and so did I.
While my life now in the outside has become a stream of pain, due to the requirement of me taking pain-inducing medication (an injection) each month, for the REST OF MY LIFE!!!
This is all I can say now.
All this treatment makes me actually be more inclined into having a final death rest than to continue living with this required-to-take-medication circumstance.
tags: #mental-health #hospital #nurses #traumatization #death
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