have been writing a story. it's challenging for me, and apparently i write at least three times as slow if not much worse compared to ballpark durations i'm seeing online versus number of words. even these posts are more cautiously put together than they might look

i'll try editing less as i write and doing separate passes instead. i'll also avoid spending time searching for the perfect adjective/verb to describe something, although i think i've improved at that already (i recall relying on thesaurus a lot more in the past)

it feels like i brutishly apply a poorly suited mode of thinking to writing. i think i'm good at finding the right words to express ideas in a single sentence, but i struggle to use multiple sentences. there's always trouble with complex and heavily loaded sentences, which get mashed together in a mess of prepositions and have to be split manually. even here. haha

i found this to be good for non-fiction summaries in reports etc. when an idea can just be one sentence or a few sentences reforged into multiple, but it seems outstandingly terrible at writing fiction. it's like a sentence is a very easy translation for how the thought looks inside, but once the thought is translated that sentence has hardened and is difficult to process further, which starts to become an issue for more complex thoughts that need to be presented in a structured way

i don't think what i have written is good despite spending probably about 6 hours writing something that is not very long. i hope to write more and share it eventually